Learning to talk to the inner me

I’ve mentioned before how long it took me to pluck up the courage to do this. To do anything, actually. Because I didn’t know that blogging about the life and times of me, and becoming some kind of un-masked mental health crusader, would be what I ended up doing.

I have notepads full of pros and cons lists; new career possibilities ranging from teacher to beautician; the beginnings of tens, if not hundreds, of ideas for creative projects from children’s books to photography to a sitcom.

Throughout my life, particularly as my PR, marketing and communications career really got going, I have been grappling with dissatisfaction, disappointment, almost shame – and the overwhelming feeling of not being able to get out what I know is cooped up inside.

That being has gotten stronger and louder as I’ve gotten older and also since I’ve had my children, when I decided to take a break from the only career, however unwanted, that I had.

But I didn’t know how to talk to this being, the creative and ambitious inner Jo. I didn’t know how to speak her language, how to decode her messages. So she got cross. Like, Fatal Attraction cross.

And she took it out on me. She told me I was nothing, that I would always be nothing, that I was making zero meaningful contribution to this world. She’s a really harsh critic.

It took our near-miss last year to finally get connected. To learn that maybe we couldn’t speak the same language yet, but why hadn’t we ever bothered to try?

So when I said “sod it, what’s the worst that can happen?” and started My Anxious Life this year, it was amazing how quickly I could see a change. I started to feel good about myself as a person again, and remember all the things that I have to offer. And man, did inner Jo respond. She started encouraging me to try new things, to be brave. If something doesn’t work, try something new. No big deal! And for the first time, I listened to her. I believed her.

I’ve come to realise that she isn’t the enemy. She’s my best ally.

Shank You Very Much

12 thoughts on “Learning to talk to the inner me

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    1. Definitely. It’s not really something you hear about growing up, so it can often take a long time as an adult to figure it out. And yet it’s so important in helping us to make the right decisions, in planning for our futures – in all aspects of figuring out what it is we actually want from life!

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  1. We should listen to out inner voice. That’s how we can really be happy. You never know what will happen until you try.

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  2. I think there are 2 parts of the inner me: the gut reaction and the over thinker. Neither of them are helpful on their own! Thanks for linking up with #globalblogging

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  3. I really wish you all the best and sending you positive vibes for your blog!
    May you reach great heights!! ❤
    Love,
    Gratisoul

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  4. I have been told I am my worst critic – it is true, however, it also keeps me striving for bigger and better things! I’m so glad you’ve realised your inner voice is an ally xx

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  5. I agree with you and I like how you can use it to help you but sometimes it might hold us back and that would turn against us, really great post.

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